Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Learning to Forgive

I think that most people would agree, that a sure sign of maturity...  no, not maturity, maybe integrity..  well, maybe, well at least a sign of a "big person" is the ability to forgive.  Forgiveness I guess is when you realize you've been done a wrong.  Maybe you've been hurt, or even scared.  But you still are willing to say, "you know, I'm going to let this go - I'm moving on". 

Yes, forgiveness - and I think it's time for me to forgive.  It's been a number of years, and my pain still runs deep.  I feel it every day in fact - usually I keep this to myself, only sharing with the people closest to me as they help me cope.  Sometimes I can go for hours without thinking about it, but other times I'll hide in a room by myself and, well, cry.  But I do think its time to simply let it go.  Maybe simply to say" it's over, it's past, just move on".

I'm sure you know what I'm talking about at this point - Disco.

A dark era in American music - mid to late 70's, and I still feel the pain every day.  When I close my eyes, I can still see the Bee Gee's singing "Saturday Night Fever" while tight dressed, hairy chested tight panted guys with way too many necklaces "danced" around to that noise.  And I can still see "Rod the Bod" Stewart asking "Do ya think I'm sexy", and it brings pain to my heart.  Man, this hurts to write..

As you can imagine, I was a card carrying D.R.E.A.D member

Detroit Rockers Engaged in the Abolition of Disco

 - but I guess it just had to run its course.  I guess.

Well, As I was running on one of my weekend "long runs" (a sad 8 on Saturday, and barely even 10 on Sunday), I realized that it was time to Forgive, and specifically, I think I need to forgive Rod Stewart.  Ok, ok, I know it's hard, and I'll attach a sorry video of him below, but you know, check out the second, it really is a pretty good song.  Right?  RIGHT??? 

So help me forgive, and lets put this all behind us.  I'm sorry about it, and I know you are too.  But you know, I was very young at the time, and really it was too bad for Rod as rumors spread about Doctors pumping a pint of a certain fluid out of his stomach (I'm not saying I helped spread that rumor, and I'm not saying I didn't).  Be strong my friends...   Be strong....